“I’d found heaven and grabbed it as tightly as I could, but it was unraveling, an insubstantial thread sliding between my fingers, too fine to hold.”
the days are passing but they are not quite going fast enough the moon doesn’t come up until i am half asleep and it feels like i am in perpetual sun the days are passing and the work keeps coming and going and i think it is all going okay but what is okay really when everyone is doing well and you don’t really know where you fall the days are passing and for a tiny second i just want them to stop.
i want to breathe i want to be able to go where i want to and not worry about grades or assignments or anything i want to hold your hand and see the world and have great adventures but this is all the stuff we have to get through before we can do that.
thirteen days until the end of yss and i think i have made my time here worthwhile — i think i have grown and i have been putting in effort and god i have even had fun, bless my friends for keeping me afloat but i am so so ready to just fall into your arms and hit pause on the rest of the world for a week.
counting down the days until i can look at your gorgeous face and hear the laugh that makes my own heart well up with happiness and just. kiss you and let the world fall away.
i’m so so glad we are almost there bc long distance suuuucks.